I've Felt...

As we stand a couple of weeks away from the new year, a year of God's blessing, the year 2008 will finally come to a close in the next 2 weeks. The new year brings much joy and anticipation, however a good start is often hard to get especially if one is unprepared for it. The year that will soon be over, will only be a distant memory and nothing more. We look back at it constantly to remember the do'(s) and don't(s) as we progress in life. The good and the bad that comes with it, we learn to live with. One thing is certain that, change is inevitable and the only constant in life is change.

On a personal note, the year 2008 brought out a-lot of emotions. Not once so much as been shed over things that would not have been shed on before. A roller-coaster ride, I would like to describe it as. Fortunately one doesn't need to ride the scary thrills of life alone all the time, for a change it's just nice to have someone with you when things are getting stormy.

The feelings I've felt this year

1. I've felt like a basketball player who missed a free-throw and cost his team the championship title.

2. I've felt like a 10 year old having a crush.

3. I've felt like a younger sibling at times. To have someone watch over you.

4. I've felt like little boy who knows where the exit of a shopping mall is, but yet to find his way out.

5. I've felt that doing the right thing sometimes doesn't give you the outcome you want.

6. I've felt invincible sometimes.

7. I've felt what is it like to be alone, and no one seem to understand.

8. I've felt what it's like to be loved.

9. I've felt like I have not eaten in a month.

10. I've felt tired of doing nothing.

11. I've felt like being taken advantage when showed kindness

12. I've felt like helping those who are less fortunate than I am.

13. I've felt like I could do anything and the world was at my feet..

God was always here, He never left.

The Life as a Tunnel Theory...

It's been over a month since I last said anything here. Not that there has been total inactivity and passiveness in my life, but I have learnt the hard way about posting your personal thoughts over the internet and many things are just unappropriate or needless for the public to take a swipe at. I respect confidentiality. 

Anyway, that's besides the point. There's been so many different life theories floating around, so lets begin with the thought of a tunnel, shall we? There are many different tunnels as to the different life situations that many people go through, your life experience maybe very well different from mine and rightly so. Each person's life is unique, the joys and the hardships all carry it's own unique distinctive mark. The tendacy is to compare your life to someone elses but in reality it's quite impossible to do so, even if you're comparing to your twin sibling. God made everyone as an individual, so no matter how alike your life situation maybe to someone elses, it is not the same. The meaning of tunnel.

Your tunnel may look like this ...
Or this
Or possibly like this too.

What about Life? I have heard such quotes as "Life without problems is not life" , "If everything in Life was easy, it's not life anymore" etc. It's not wrong, until a certain extent I have probably used such quotes before. Basically, there are too many definitions or more like philosophies on this very board word LIFE. This is what the dictionary define it as LIFE

When i mentioned that every tunnel is different, I also realized that statement had a flaw. All tunnels do share a similarity, there is a beginning and there is also an end. You walk in to the pitch black darkness, you see the light at the other end. As to Life, there is a beginning and there is an end. 

It pictures in my head like this. Everyone is in this huge tunnel. It's dark. When you have lots of people and limited space, people start to struggle with another . Some people choose to run in the tunnel despite the darkness while some choose to walk slowly and a minority do not move at all . Inside the tunnel, there will be people you are automatically close with , some you find along the way and you lose some as you go , those that make things difficult for you . Some find one who's willing to journey alongside them . In there, you find and lose things. Some you regain, some are gone forever. The darkness tells about uncertainty that we go through. It is inevitable that we will fall at some point, sometimes more than others. On occasions, we fall because somebody else meant harm, sometimes it is our own carelessness and sometimes who knows eh?

Thus far, I would like to think that I've had my fair share of how life is. I thank God for the good times that came, and I learn to appreciate the things I had in the good times when things are tough. Despite whatever has happened, God has shown His grace upon my life. :-)

I Miss You...

 

P.U.S.H

P.U.S.H that is something that has been keeping me going on the past couple of weeks. It has been a really tough time, but despite pulling through eventually realizing that some scars and bruises have been left there. It does not hurt anymore, but it's just there. Well, look beyond that and move on with life. There can't be any progress in life, if one is going to hold back everything that was once what it was.

Trying to P.U.S.H in these times were not easy, and i kid you not. It was not easy. However, just like other things in life. It's like in a tunnel, i see life as a tunnel (will blog about that some-other time). It will be dark in the beginning but at every tunnel there's a light at the end. No one's saying about how long the journey will be or how it will be. What you choose to do inside there, is entirely up to you. Continue walking till see the end? or perhaps sit and sulk to hope for help to arrive...Mind you helicopters can't break through tunnels.

For those who have felt hopeless and defeated recently. You are not alone, there are many around this world who go through the same thing as you do. Each situation for individuals is unique, but concept is roughly the same. I urge you to persevere in whatever that you are facing. He is with you all of the way, it's just whether you realize He's there or not. He understands your pain, your sorrows. But only through tough times it's where we learn, and we only discipline those the we love.

P - Pray

U - Until

S - Something

H - Happens

So don't give up on yourself or whoever you're praying for until He gives up.*

*He never gives up

Eye on the prize..

Things have not been easy of late. The forces of externalities in life are just at times simply inevitable and when it approaches, there is nothing that can be done to stop it or possibly avoid it. They do not necessarily have to be negative things, with negative effects but even positive things which carries are positive effects are not easily carried out.

Everyone has their own situations in life that make their life, basically what it is. Your life for what it's worth, may not be the outlook in someone else's sight but it is how you value your own in the eyes of That who is greater that matters more, so much more than sometimes life itself.

Eye on the prize. A common phrase used when relates to intense focus in achieving something. Usually referred to just working towards a certain goal and not letting anything stand in the way. However, technically speaking it is impossible to stay like that through out, we're bound to be derailed at times, bound to distracted once in awhile and sometimes just plained, simple confused about our goals.

Relating that to another phrase, "It's hard to put all your heart into something when your heart is already elsewhere". This practically means, your end goal has been shifted and if that's the case, everything else that has been tailored to goal will have to follow suit and move. Once again, like many other things in life, it's probably easier said than done.

When things are tough, if you've set your heart to get it completed. You will probably fight every demon and circumstance to make you attain it. However, if your heart ain't at it anymore, you will probably let go of it...even though you're having a strong grip on it...

Hear all out, but not listen to all

There will be times in life, where one would realize that his/her own opinion is no longer one's strongest opinion anymore or perhaps some just need affirmation to strengthen that own opinion. It comes a time where one would heed or seek advice from someone else, and that advice maybe ...just maybe enough to either give one the affirmation that it is right and continue to go on or perhaps in the reverse order which also means backing out.

In the natural, when in dire need of advice, one would consult and perhaps even listen to anyone irregardless of the person's knowledge towards a particular situation. Which tends to be in my honest opinion a very rash decision should it take place. On the other extreme, there are people who think so highly of themselves that they shut out every opinion and can barely see beyond their own nose bridge. Whilst, valuing your own opinion is not something negative..in fact it could very much be a strong point, it is also ones downfall.

The most appropriate should be that you hear all opinions out but also filter through what comes in and out. Whatever is useful take heed, listen..you may learn a thing or two. Whatever is not beneficial, can be discarded.

It's easier said than done, however. Never stop trying though. Good advice? yet again...your choice

More than just Passion...

The title does not mean anything negative regarding the Passion world tour in Kuala Lumpur at the Sunway Convention Center, cause they really flipped KL inside-out. Louie , Charlie , Chris and the worship team. A salute to you guys, an Amazing job. Well done, I hope that despite the good job that the whole Passion world tour team continue to make things even better for the remainding 10 nations on the world tour. You came and left Kuala Lumpur in awe of How Great Our God is..Great Music, Great Preaching and Testimony..It was extremely moving.

There's plenty about this that I would like to talk about. However, those are only secondary to the main purpose. We all serve together in the body of Christ. Not one can do without the other. It doesn't matter whether you were part of the Passion worship team or a random member in the congregation. All have a role to play, in our own unique way. Everybody made this happen. God uses people in special ways, with the different giftings and talents at hand.

Now also a special thanks to all the crazy Filipinos back at Manila who gave so willingly to make this possible for us. Apart from that, also thank you for all the prayers for this event. Hearing how the Passion blog was flooded with comments really got us into action ourselves.

Manila, Philippines may the God of this city bless you for your faithfulness and sacrifice towards the building of the Kingdom. May whatever you set your hands to do, may it carry a powerful anointing that would be instantly recognized and also distinctly identified as a force that only King of Kings can bring. Let your love for the Lord be always loud, let neighboring countries hear your shout of praise. Breaking the sound barrier, let heaven rejoice together with you. God is doing something Big in your midst. Amen

I still have the Passion wristband strapped tightly to my wrist. It's probably going to stay there till the Passion world tour takes place in Jakarta. Apart from the fact, that I can't seem to find a way to take it out apart from cutting it. It serves a very meaningful purpose. I'm still very much moved by what Manila, Philippines did for us. Therefore, we only reap what we sow. Even though in this case, It was something that they did for us that hopefully we hope to do the same for Jakarta, Indonesia.

Jakarta, Indonesia. The Lord hears your cry towards justice and peace. May what we have experienced in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia tonight be also the same for you guys on the 5th August, Tuesday night if not even better. Let not your creativity in the spirit realm be limited by the lack of space or any other limitations that will be attempting to deter your hungry spirit for the presence of the Lord. I pray Jakarta, Indonesia that your love for the Lord will be stronger than ever. Lord, I pray that your spirit will move within the hearts of these young indonesians of Jakarta that night. May this be more than just a one-off experience they will endure, but may it be a life-changing juncture in their life. Lord, I commit the conference into your hands, bless them as how you have blessed us. Amen.

And last but not least, Passion team. You've been truly a blessing. Rm20 was a real steal in my opinion. We've been very blessed by your ministry. There were many bands out there that the Lord could have used. But the Lord chose you guys, and though reaching the nations is already a very "WOW" big thing. I believe that the Lord has greater things installed for you, the best is yet to come. You've been here at a specific time for a purpose. And that has been achieved. All the best on the following 10 steps, may the Lord send his angels to protect you guys always with your coming in and going out. Amen

How much are you willing to pay?

When the word "pay" is mentioned, what is the first thing that comes to mind? There is a very high possibility that the first thought that comes to mind is money related. Well, it is not wrong that money related matters come to mind, but try to think beyond the issues of finances and then what comes to your mind next? Paying for something is technically exchanging something you have for something that you do not own but it is equated at a certain amount. Everyone will have a different evaluation system on items, as the saying goes "one man's meat is another man's poison". It works exactly the same here.

This is also when terms like priceless , treasure and etc comes in. Back to the point, apart from money...what's next in your mind? I think Love is something that comes to mind as well, am not referring to the love relationships between parents to children or couples, am referring to something beyond that. Now, what has this gotta do with paying/payment? Frankly, it's everything cause it involves more than just money of sorts, it's your life that is left at stake and unless you think your life is not worth anything most people will consider otherwise then. Are you getting a clearer picture of what am talking about now?

I know of Someone who gave everything for you and me. We've mentioned about how much we're willing to pay for something? He gave His life in return for us to have life. He gave it all. Despite that, logically speaking wouldn't we owe Him our life then? Yes, we do owe our lives to Him. However, like a true gentleman He never forces, those who return to Him, He gladly accepts. Those who choose not to whether knowingly or unknowingly, He does not forget about you either. As said, He never forces. Therefore, He'll be like an accountant writing off the bad-debts. So now that you know that He gave everything for you, I push the ball to your feet, the question comes to you...

"How much are you willing to give back to the One who gave it all for you?"

A metaphor that ticks..

Does one knows how it feels to let a golden opportunity slip by? Maybe that's too vague an example to be used. Perhaps, does one know how does it feel to be standing outside a door knocking but yet it goes unanswered. Depending on one's situation the environment will determine the harshness of the treatment. For example if it's fair weather on the outside, cool breeze and plenty of sunshine then maybe having one to wait knocking at the door seems alright. However, in turn if it was a heavy downpour, lightning accompanied with thunder storms and the same door remains unanswered how does that feel? Ponder upon that thought for a moment and search yourself...How would that feel like? Question yourself...I strongly urge you to.

How would you define a true gentleman? Just refer that question to the earlier question. How is it supposed to link, i will let you do the thinking instead. A polite gentleman would stand outside that same door and continue to knock until it is answered. Never like to be an uninvited guest is He. Despite the ravaging conditions outside that door, the polite gentleman would not crash through the door and will certainly not force His way unless invited in. Once again, I leave you with another thought..Why would you not open the door to this gentleman? By already not forcing His way with things, could He be having harmful intentions? or evil schemes? I highly doubt the possibility of that..and most certainly beg to defer should you think of that likelyhood. He waits for an answer on the other side of the door, if answered He rejoices, if not He waits despite the rejection that is at hand.

In turn, what if this gentleman had important information regarding something that would change your life forever and for the better. You've heard of it before, but maybe you're contented with how your life has turned out, but is there anything wrong with having it being even better than the previous? Another scenario, what if things have been on the tough side for you, you struggle and this gentleman could perhaps help you. What's stopping you from opening the door to allow Him to make his point? Things are already in a dire state for you, there's practically nothing to lose..why not take an outside chance to see how things would turn out. Yet most of you despite already hearing what can be done for you, the waiting game is one you choose to adopt and play. He rejoices and accepts despite what you've done to him, as long as you choose to open the door and allow Him in.

Decision making is important but making it at the right time makes all the difference. Making the right decision at the right time is the perfect combination. He may never walk away from your door, but however there are other doors to that need to be knocked at and the possibility of it being answered. Should one decide to open the door after a particular period, unfortunately sometimes it maybe a little too late. That opportunity may not come by again, and one who lets something important slips by rues and regrets it for the rest of one's entire life. Do not make the wrong decisions or at least the unwise ones. You may live to regret it, similarly to many situations in life that bring about the same familiarities.

"You know what I mean"

Timing, Directions and Decisions

Time is money? Time is of the essence. A familiar saying huh?..Many people equate time as such and it apparently seems to be the right thing to do.
Time is one of a few things that once lost it cannot be recovered no more.
The things that one considered doing yesterday but procrastinated to another day, will not get that same opportunity ever again.
Should a similar situation arise in the future once again, it isn't the same.
It is no genuine replacement, it is just at best a replica.
Doing the right thing at the right time is the perfect skill, because the right thing at the wrong time would be imperfect so would be the wrong thing at the right time.

Directions..Left, Right, Center? Middle, Up, Down? Directions compliment with Timing. Referring more to decisions in life and not road signs.
There'll be times in life, where one will run into junctions, cross-roads, and perhaps some even wish for U-turns. It does occur, but however in this case not the most possible option.
Problem with directions, one can only choose to go one way, hope for the best and leave the rest in God's hand.
At times, it reaches a dead end and there is only a route of escape from that. Which is exactly the same way, one would have entered the dead end.
As far as one looks, all one sees is nothing. Nothing visible enough to be a pleasant sight.

Supposedly to be guidelines to where one would like to end up, but there's the exsistence of wrong directions and with that..One would be heading down the wrong route.

Finally, decisions. It's something in life that would definitely be easier said than done.

Anyone's life would be filled it with, to one his/her decision would be personally important. However in the eyes of the world, some may seem rather less significant in comparison to others.

Decision making as one may see at as a personal agenda, but unknowingly it is much more than that as the people around are usually affected by the taken decision.

Hard as it is a times , easy during others. God never gives us what we can't handle, but it's more of handling it the right way, His way.

That would be a bigger challange.

A Tag

I've nearly nothing left to blog about recently....so Steph, thanks for the letting me borrow this tag..so that my blog still can be updated...

1. Do you randomly tag people on the blog?- Err...only when i have to

2. Whats your favorite food?- Anything goes, just no eggs please...

3. Who was your first crush?- That depends...

4. Are you weird- Sometimes, I guess...

5. Do you believe in Jesus?- With All I am

6. Whats your race?- Chinese

7. How old are you now?- 19

8. Are you dirty minded?- Probably not...but you don't sound convinced...

9. Do you have a pet?- Yes

10. What kind of pet?- Dog...

11. Do you have a job?- Nope

12. What kind of job?- Refer to question 11

13. Do you mix around much with people?- Depending..

14. Do you watch animation?- Hardly..

15. Whats your favorite animation?- None..

16. Are you sensitive?- Once again...depending..

17. Do you believe in Santa Claus?- Fat Man in Red Suit? Nah...

18. What do you do during your free time?- Just about anything you can think off...

19. When was your first kiss?- mmm...

20. What do you think of the world?- The world has changed alot..

21. Do you love studying- Need it, still learning to like it...

22. What do you want to be when you grow up?- I want to make a difference in the world..

23. Are you Emo?- Occasionally..

24. Will you hit a girl if you are ask too?- Gosh...No..

25. Do you have any siblings?- An occasionally hard to handle sister...

26. Do you play online games?- Once upon a time...

27. How smart are you?- Probably Smarter than a 5th Grader..

28. Do you love animals?- Depends...

29. What do you find injustice?- Committing a crime and getting away with it..

30. What activities do you attend?- Are activities attendable? If there's such a word to begin with..

31. What is your most prize item?- No prized items...just priceless things..

32. Do you have a love affair with someone?- ..Affair just sounds scandalous..

33. Have you come to a near death situation before?- Probably once...while driving..

34. How many times?- Read question 33

35. Is there anything that is important to you?- Yup, there is..

36. Who do you enjoy hanging out with the most?- That's for me to know..

37. Is there anything that you are afraid of in this world?- Yeah,..

38. Are you friendly?- Can be...but the hostile looks give myself away too many times...

39. Are you polite and kind- I try to be..

40. Are you mean to people?- Not a problem...if u ask for it..

41. Who do you treasure the most in the world?- Things that are close to my heart..

A Major Writer's Block

It's been approximately 2 weeks since my last post. Just for the knowledge of those who figured I may have disappeared from the face of this earth, That's not true. I'm still very much alive just that I've been having a ermm....what people call a "Writer's Block"...and a it's a Major one.

Not there's nothing to write, just there's nothing to write about.

Life's been all the more sophisticated, even to the extent of complicated at times. Nevertheless, it's still pleasant. Yes! God's been good.

About the Writer's block, it's been made clear that I'm not alone on this. As I went through every blog available on my blogroll, it turns out that coincidentally there are others facing the same problem. Just that not all talk about it.

Cousins...sorry for not posting anything on the Cousin's blog. This has been the problem to my lengthy absence...

Fuel prices skys to Mars

Yesterday was the 4th of June. Amelia, Happy Birthday! Sorry for the late wish though.

Well, back to the main story. At 5pm in the evening, an announcement made by our Prime Minister sparked a real frenzy around Malaysia, one that shook Malaysia more than the Tsunami could ever have done. It literally sent shock-waves through the country.

It basically caused traffic mayhem in almost every corner of town, as long as there was a petrol station within touching distance.

My opinion on this is that after awhile, most people would just allow that whole shockwave of the dramatic raise to sink in and life would resume as normal. However, still on this matter my question would be how long would it take for the feeling to fully sink in?

People who are less fortunate and earn less, could they ever find way to compensate for this substantial increase? Only time will tell whether this decision that has been made, will be justified for the better or the opposite. If interested, here are some links to further keep yourself updated on the current happenings with oil prices.

78 cent increase

Datuk Seri Idris Jala's opinion

Scene of Madness

Hillsong United rocked Kuala Lumpur....

The Ticket for the Concert..

Malaysia!! Make some noise!!....Was the opening line for Hillsong United's Worship Leader Joel Houston has they got the concert started.

Not much can be said about it, apart from it was AWESOME!!

God was there, He moved in the premise of GTPJ. I could feel Him there.

Every part of today from the build up to the concert, getting lost around PJ, travelling home...Priceless..

Moscow , Here we come..Man United, beware..

THIS morning on the 1st of May or for the working crowd, better known as labour day produced one of the finest football matches in football's most elite and prestigious competition the UEFA Champions League. It was the 2nd leg of the 2nd semi final game between Chelsea and Liverpool. It's the 3rd time in 4 years have both the English clubs locked horns and engaged in battle. So far, Liverpool has been sucessful in all attempts and even returned as Champions in 2005.

There was much at stake for both clubs, however unlike the past 3 times the clubs met. It was advantage Chelsea this time around. A late own goal from John Arne Riise at Anfield, gave the Blues their solitary away goal to return back to their fortress Stamford Bridge where they have not lost for 80 home games (I hope i got my statistics correct...:-)). For Chelsea gaffer, Avram Grant his job perhaps was on the line again, but doing what his predecessor, Jose Mourinho failed to do would be vindication for all the trouble he endured.

Liverpool knowing that scoring once, would be good enough to bring them to Moscow. In addition to that, knowing that a 1-1 draw and berth to a penalty shoot-out wouldn't be too bad either. However, as the game got on the way, It was Chelsea that started the brighter. The first goal, came to Chelsea via Ivorian hitman Didier Drogba. An initial shot from fellow Ivorian Solomon Kalou who was judged to be in an off-side position, forced a save from Liverpool's goalkeeper Pepe Reina only to rebound to a waiting Drogba, who smashed the shot leaving the goalkeeper with no chance. There were attemps here and there, but it's the goal that counts. (Outcome : Chelsea dominate)

Down at the tunnel, perhaps after receiving some motivational talks from Rafa. Liverpool came out with all guns blazing, and Chelsea were practically pinned in their own half. The 2nd half told a totally different story from the first, with Liverpool strongly in the ascending. And in the 64th minute, after some careless defending from the Chelsea defence, The man they call "El Nino" a.k.a Fernando Torres equalized. If the results stay as it is, we'll be heading for extra time and possibly penalties. 90 mins are up, the score stays at 1-1. On the extra time we go...(Outcome: Liverpool to win)

Once again, following the patterns that were set in the previous two halves. Chelsea were at it again, perhaps it's from which side you're attacking. LOL. And through a corner, the ball rebounded out of the Liverpool penalty box only for Essien to smash it right in. 2-1 Chelsea..for about 5 seconds, then the linesman ruled it out because there were 3 Chelsea players in offside positions but no interfering with play. Bad decision, the goal should have stood. However, Karma took its place later..as Sami Hyypia brought down Michael Ballack in the area. Referee points to the spot! PENALTY.

Chelsea have been having some internal problems, with set pieces as seen last week with Ballack and Drogba against Man United. Neither were involved this time, up stepped Frank Lampard. To be honest, I really admire the guy's courage. He has just gone through the toughest week, anyone can go through (His Mom passed away), and now He's stepping up to absorb all the pressure of the team on his shoulders. He braved the pressure, and sends Reina the wrong way! Well done, Frank. I'm sure your Mom is going to be very proud. Emotional celebrations from England's number 8.



It placed Liverpool under pressure. But the Reds know that one more goal and they will be going through to the final in Moscow. But that was not going to happen as Didier Drogba once again came to Chelsea's aid and netted a third goal with barely anytime remaining on the 1st half of extra time.

The 2nd half of extra time, both teams started to look Jaded and Ryan Babel who came on for Fernando Torres did pull one back with a long range effort which should have been handled better by Chelsea's Petr Cech. It was a soft shot, and it was a very soft goal to ooncede by the Czech Republic international.

That's how the game ended. And bottom line, Chelsea will be heading to their first Champions League final. And will face-off with Premiership arch-rivals Man United. Good luck boys!!

Just to keep the rest of the world updated...

This is just a post to keep things running and showing people that the blog is still somewhat how "active"...I've got nothing much to post here or more like the more recent happenings don't need to be shown on the internet.

Well, I'm on study break. Been studying...but nothing seems to really sink in. Sink in for long i guess..Can't really think of what else to say, got more stuff to worry about than updating this blog. And yeah, there's no life crisis going on. Everything's fine and dandy, I'm doing great...

So for now, Cheers...

Countdown to the Day....14 and counting...

April 21st will mark a day of two events in my life.

1 - That would be the final day of my final semester of my foundation course. Times does fly...

2- I get to take my "P" sticker off , and become an "offical" proper driver....no longer gonna get bullied on the road..

Yeah, i know it's short...well nothing to say here really....

Realignment...

This word "REALIGNMENT" was a word, I remember Pastor Ong placed alot of importance on during one particular prayer meet. That's exactly what I need right now, I've been derailed pretty much through this month of march. There's been alot happening, some cause sadness, some brought unending joy..This Easter was great, It is one to remember...

Tagged

Tagged

Real Name : Kevin Lee Hsien Ern

Nickname : Kev , Lil'Kev, Hsien Ern? ..(some cannot mention)

Married : nope

Male/Female : male

High School : Chong Hwa Independent High School & Smk Taman Melawati

College : Nottingham University

Short/ Long Hair : Short

Are u a healthy freak : Not really

Height : 171cm

Do u have a crush on someone? : Maybe?

Do u like yourself : Is that even a question?

Piercings : None

Righty of lefty : Righty

First....

Surgery : Nope..

Piercing : Nadaa...


Person u see in the morning : Myself in the mirror...

Award : Not many achievements, can't remember anyway.

Sport you joined : Football...aged 7

Pet : the late Cheerful, i guess? Dalmatian..

Vacation : Europe..aged 8 i think...

Concert : Can't recall...been to a few...

First crush : Can't recall...it's been a long time


Currently...

Eating: Just finished a chocolate brownie

Drinking: Water

I'm about to : Continue studying accounts...

Your future...

Want kids : Yeah. As long they're easier to handle than myself when i was young...

Want to get married: Yup, definitely not now though...

Careers in mind: Not too sure..but along the business line hopefully..

Which is better?

Lips or eyes?: Eyes. Lips can tell lies, Eyes can't.

Hugs or kisses: This is a tough one. But i'll go with Hugs...(for now)

Shorter or taller?: Short...like i'm all that tall...LOL

Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic I guess…

Sensitive or loud: Depends...

Troublemaker or hesitant?: Don't think either one would help me.

Have u ever....

Kissed a stranger?: Nope...not a stranger.

Drank bubbles: Bubbles? Maybe? When taking a bubble bath....

Lost glasses/contacts: Mutantnized Eyes

Ran away from home: If sneaking out for football counts, then countless times..

liked someone younger: Yup.

liked someone older: Guilty.

Broke someone's heart: Sad to say...Yes.

Cried when someone died: Grandmothers..

Do u believe in...

Yourself?: Too much for my own good.

Miracles: Absolutely.

Heaven: I live for that.

Santa Claus: Nope. I dressed up as one once...

Magic: Nah, magic = lame. Superhero abilities would be cooler!!

Angels: Yet to see one. But yeah..they're around.

Answer truthfully...

Is there someone you want to be with right now?: Yup, very much.

Do u believe in God?: Oh YES. My life relies on him. I would have been dead without Him.

Tag 5 people:

Victor
Cassandra
Adryenne Lim
Stephanie
Zhong Ren

My Heart-Felt Thanks...

I will not go further than express this heart-felt thanks in due respect to my late grandmother, Wong Mun Thye.

To everyone who showed up and remembered us in our prayer. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, for supporting my family to get through this time of grief.

Life however doesn't stop here, It has to go on. My late Grandmother is in a better place, She has moved on. So will the rest of us.

Once again, for those who has shown their support. May God bless and enrich your life always.

Chris Daughtry - Feels Like Tonight

Feels Like Tonight

You, you got me
Thinking it'll be alright.
You, you told me,
"Come and take a look inside."
You believed me,
In every single lie.
But I, I failed you this time.

And it feels like tonight.
I can't believe I'm broken inside.
Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you?
And it feels like tonight,
Tonight.

I was waiting
For the day you'd come around.
I was chasing,
But nothing was all I found.
From the moment you came into my life,
You showed me what's right.

And it feels like tonight.
I can't believe I'm broken inside.
Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you?
And it feels like tonight.

I never felt like this before.
Just when I leave, I'm back for more.
Nothing else here seems to matter.
In these ever-changing days,
You're the one thing that remains.
I could stay like this forever.

And it feels like tonight.
I can't believe I'm broken inside.
Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you?
And it feels like tonight.
Tonight.
Tonight.
'Cause there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you.
And it feels like tonight.
Tonight.

Beautiful game getting uglier ...

I came home yesterday already drained, my mood got no uplifting favours from the newspaper sports section. It did has something to do with football dubbed the "beautiful game", (let me stress that) it had nothing to do with Chelsea losing the Carling Cup to Spurs or finding out that there's a rumoured bust-up between Chelsea skipper John Terry and Coach Henk Ten Cate.

Just for your information, those were the BIG headlines in yesterday's papers. What caught my attention that really gripped my heart was a small column to the right that wrote "Fan losses hand after bomb explodes". The first impression I had was that it was those usual happenings in mostly Latin based countries who always throw tear-gas and flares during matches both inside and outside the stadium, except this time it was a BOMB. This fella perhaps was just an unlucky man, who did nothing and just got blasted.

This dawn upon me, that once dubbed the beautiful game for its atmosphere with families attending to watch the game, little children watching their idols play for their clubs. All those days are long gone into thin air. Not just that, even the days where players would play for the sake of pride of their club and country are gone to. That is because football has become a multi-million dollar spinning industry, there's so much money at stake. That's how corruption entered and brought the Italian League nearly to its knees.

Back about the BOMB. This happened in Sao Paulo, Brazil. This man, Ivo Costa aged 62 had his right arm amputated by doctors. WHY? at what cost? He basically tried to toss away a home-made bomb thrown by rival supporters, unfortunately for him. It was an unsucessful attempt and one that will haunt him for the rest of his life. The bomb exploded in his arm, perhaps some would say that he should consider himself lucky that he's alive. Well, if a terrorist had his arm chopped off, people will would say he deserved it, cause those hands probably had innocent blood all over it.

In my opinion, the reason why he picked up the bomb is a very unselfish deed (not to mention a high risked one). He could have easily just ran to somewhere else and let it blow, which probably would have blown up in the face of bystanders who did not realized about it. He can count himself as a very unlucky man, and probably that's the last football match he'll ever be attending (I think). Those rivals fans should really be ashamed of themselves, what is it that's so much at stake that people have to go injuring other people just because of a difference over the club they support. It's ridiculous come to think about it.

Sports regardless what game, has been seen as a way of uniting countries and people together. Somewhat how, I think that purpose has disappeared from the face of this earth. Don't even get me started on the racial abuse some players get. That's equally bad as violence.

For further info about this man : check it at Sao Paulo bomb incident

I send this man my best regards, and hope all football fans around take notice of this.

Is this the right kinda of attitude??

Mmmm....Technically speaking, Humans are generally more inconsiderate/selfish by nature. As It can be seen on the road, for frequent road-users we run into this kind of people all the time. Whether they are motorcyclist, car drivers, bus drivers etc. All types show this inconsiderate-ness at some point.

It would be very judgemental for me to say that on the road, I've never been selfish or inconsiderate. It would be a BIG BIG lie..however, I think i fair better of than this minority that is being referred to. No one is perfect so therefore should not speak as though we are..

Anyway, today I went back to Uni. Before noon, headed to Metro Point, Kajang for branch with my class-mates. As i parked the car, I noticed this. (Hang in there...I'm getting to it)

Back to this whole inconsiderate attitude...Would it still be considered inconsiderate if you were in a position where being inconsiderate would not effect anyone...?? It just pop-ed into my head, still doesn't make much sense to me. So just decided to throw it here..

Here's my evidence to my statement or whatever you wanna call it..


Though there were plenty of parking lots, this lady parked her car parallel in
probably 3 parking lots. Though there weren't any cars, I can't really
understand the need for such a decision.


There you go....look further ahead. Notice it's all empty. But still...you get
what i mean..

Time to face the music...

Since the start of the 2nd semester, It was announced to us that we would be getting our results on that 1st week. However, we've been made to dread for it even longer, thinking that we would be given the "shot" on the first week was very naive thinking of me.

Well, approximately 5 minutes ago...I've just receieved a couple of emails telling me that results are out and the times I can collect the result transcript. I think probably this is one of the problems that has been contributing to my many many sleepless nights in the past month or so.

I frankly have no idea at all what my results will be, but I'm having very mixed feelings about it. As much as I would want to think about a positive outcome, just can't seem to get myself to do so. It has been made known to me that the subjects statistics and principles of management A, was the subject that majority people did very badly in.

On my own personal part, those 2 subjects are coincidentally the 2 subjects I felt I did badly in. So it has therefore been sending cold shivers up my spine since then that worst maybe yet to come.

I'll admit that it is Oh so difficult to bring consolation. I'm trying not too feel defeated to a battle that I've yet to be engaged in. Lord, please come to my rescue...

Trait differences..

Mmm...how should i begin this? Nope, I'm not gonna blog about Chinese New Year's happenings. Lets start like this, imagine something round or in a circular shape. What comes to your mind? (you're thinking now) Let me decide for you, think of a pie. Slice it into half right down the middle of it. (done) Now turn it into a pizza and slice it half but horizontally now...you probably got a uncoloured BMW logo now. Ignore all those...It was lame....just finding things to stretch my post.

What i n(really) want to talk about is regarding the course I attended today "D.I.S.C" in church. It is a course to basically help you know yourself better, by knowing what kind of person you are. It will enable you to serve more effectively in church and discover a-little more of yourself.

There's alot more explaination I could do to build up on this "D.I.S.C" but i guess i'll slash all of those unnecessary "bla bla blas" and get to do the point.

I'm gonna list out the type of traits that the different type of people have. See which one suits you best.

• Type "D" person (Active/Task Oriented) - Dominating , Directing , Driving, Demanding, Determined, Decisive , Doing

• Type "I" person (Active/People Oriented) - Inspiring, Influencing, Inducing, Impressing, Interactive, Interested in people

• Type "S" person (Passive/People Oriented) - Steady, Stable, Shy, Security-oriented, servant, submissive, specialist

• Type "C" person (Passive/Task Oriented) - Cautious, competent, calculating, compliant, careful, contemplative

There are the different type of people that are listed. Learn more about yourself. Enjoy the rest of your day..

A priceless Birthday outing...

I'm offically 19 years of age now. At times It all seemed to take forever, but thinking back about it...It arrived probably quicker than I expected. Next year and i'll break the teenage barrier for good.

It's been a good 19 years and I only foresee better things to come. I've just gotten back from a crazy time with the guys..(Daniel , Ken Jon , Loong , Sam , Chow Hong) apart from Loong and Sam. I haven't seen the others in sometime. And they have changed. We're all growing up and I'm glad that i've kept in reasonably close contact with them.

Alot of funny things happened. But whatever happened tonight shall stay as it is. Nothing shall be revealed here.

P.S (No illegal smuggling or law breaking activity was done in the process)

Mixed Rambling...

It's nearly 1am, I know better that I should be asleep by now. However, I've been staying up later than I would have liked to. Well, most teenagers would perhaps be finding it the ultimate joy to stay up this late.

For myself, I've come to a stage where you'd actually learn to appreciate the things in life that matters...a good example would be sleep. Considering the day that i just had I should be feeling extremely tired and I am...or to be more specific I was.

I have been up since 6:30am, been at church from 7am-3pm. Played futsal from 4pm-7pm. Went out for dinner, then watched football and now here I am. By natural human standards, I should be sleeping snoozing away, but that doesn't seem to be the case.

If fatigue isn't keeping me wide awake....then something else must be. As great the past week has been due to numerous occasions, It's kinda ending on a flat note..(musicians you get what i mean)...

As for the new blog background and all, Don't question why it has changed that kinda thing.

The only thing constant in life is Change

The new title shows my savior lives...And it's more than just a song...especially when you listen to it closely.

23 Days after New Year...

Holidays...mmm....how should we begin this topic. Holidays is basically what i think the happiest time for kids..this is because they get to run away and hide from a place they call Hell...and a place their parents call school.

I'm on my own holiday now, the place i study at really isn't hell...and my parents don't call it a school either. However, the exams prior to this holiday has really driven my biological clock to some other "out of the world" time-zone. It messed up my sleeping time, my eating orders and a whole lot of bunch plus plus...

I've never had problems sleeping through-out my first 18 years on planet earth, and ever since the year beginned or more like the exams began...I've been spending countless nights staring blankly at the ceiling ...(like i could see anything in pitch black environment)...For that amount of trouble to go through, if the exams were a rather sucessful operation perhaps it might be worth suffering such an after-math...but it seems like the consequences i'm enduring after the exam seem more drastic than the build up to it....Even i can't believe that i'm saying that...

Anyway, all the HOO-HAA...big deal. There are going to be "odd situations" in life...just like these ones...but i'm still hanging in there...hanging tight.. :P

I've also decided to get rid of my whole signing off tag line...kinda figured...there's only ME in this blog...of course the post would be by ME....who else??? LOL

Usher in the year 2008

I've just gotten back from WatchNight service...it's been awhile since we had one...and pursuaded me to shortern my stay in Singapore to be back in time for it...and I'm pleased i did that, as i'm not disappointed. Alike to the many testimonies shared during the service, alot of them placed their faith in God, and He never disappointed any of them.

It's good to know that we can rely on such a reliable God...for He is always on-time. Never too early or never too late. Pastor Ong's closing prayer for the service was exactly what i needed to hear regarding my present state. I don't think there could have been a better way to end the year with such good closure.

2007 was a year where many incredible things happened. It had it ups and downs...but 2008 will only get better. For those who had a rocky 2007, do not be discourage look forward from now onwards. On the other hand, to those who had a brilliant 2007 congratulations and do not stop there continue to build forward, for greater things lie ahead!!

P.S. Blessed New Year

Signing off,

Kevin